November 2009
1 post
July 2009
1 post
The cause and effect of a matter.
Despite your seniority over me with age, I think you haven’t understood one thing. Or maybe you have only learned this much. Not listened with your heart and soul. This one thing I understand very clearly, a very vicious component. That you don’t stack your ill-good feelings inside yourself. And lash it out when you can’t take anymore.
Or maybe that were your intentions in the...
May 2009
11 posts
Wreck
I think I’m driving myself crazy I think you’re driving me crazy
Now I don’t know what to do. What can I do? Nothing
What can I do? Nothing
I really don’t know what to do I feel helpless Very lost
And I keep dreaming of you I keep thinking of you
What should I do?
:(
Oh, what nostalgia.. just that it's happening now.
My mom’s spots are back from my primary school generation. She gets stressed up over non-consequential things and starts raising her voice and letting the whole world know what we were supposed to do that we’re not doing. In this case, doing up a passport. I don’t know why she’s treating us like we’re in primary school/secondary school that she would need to accompany...
“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain...”
– Douglas Coupland
“You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that’s the sad truth. ...”
– Bones, The End in the Beginning
My heart sank
Trying to figure what I’m trying to prove. Dressing nicely like this.. Self-assurance? Or just plain laziness to find clothes under that stack of unfolded clothes. I think both.
Does people looking at me means I’m pretty? Or is it because my leg draws the attention. This is something I won’t ever know unless I take surveys of people’s opinions and draw up a chart.
And I...
“A man takes his sadness down to the river and throws it in the river but then...”
– “Boot Theory” - Richard Siken
“That is why the word “compassion” generally inspires suspicion; it designates...”
– The Unbearable Lightness of Being - Milan Kundera (pg. 20)
As regard to lies
If there’s one thing I absolutely hate to the core, it’s being lied to. If we are close and I find out that I am being lied to or you are deliberately hiding something from me, you can fuck this friendship because I won’t trust you 100% again.
Safety barrier
I’d dare to do a lot of things. Ideas can always go further if circumstances allow. The thing is, I always end up playing safe. A lot of people play it too safe as well. We end up doing nothing worthy of our time. Missing out on so much fun and so much possibilities that could lead to so many open doors in our lives.
Desmond was right. I am too careful.
Don't step on each other's toes.
This could become something worst, not liking to trust anyone. Second death? Nope. I’m going to learn how to handle this. Not running away anymore. Don’t like being ignored? Ignore that they ignored.
Positive thinking makes life feel less terrible. Even if I’m still feeling bloody straightforward now and that might make things a little difficult.
April 2009
19 posts
ftxf
Please have some manners. Thank you. We are not as close as you think we are and I don’t see why I should deal with your inconvenience. Knowing me in the past doesn’t give you any right to convince me to let you use my place how you want. Or demand for things to be done. Outrightly asking like I am obliged to do it. Know your place. I am not a pushover like I used to be. Stop living in...
A fatal attraction
Wrapped around your finger without my acknowledgement. Pushed me away, got me so worked up. Led me on like you fucking meant it. No more should happen. It’s not meant to be. You know it. I know it.
I am naive. I am insane. I am dying to ask. Be my lover? Even if not forever. Even if I am placed second instead of first. Even if I am just a secret. Just treat me how you always have, talk to...
“This is love, isn’t it? When you notice someone’s absence and hate that absence...”
– Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything Is Illuminated (via novah)
“That’s why it has to end. Drifting hurts too much.”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald, This Side of Paradise (via thoughtsdetained)
The almost flawless world of your imagination →
“Don’t be shy, just let your feelings roll on by. Don’t wear fear, or nobody will...”
– Cat Stevens - Don’t Be Shy
“I want to stand as close the the edge as I can without going over. From the edge...”
– Kurt Vonnegut
Oh great, another day of suspense and waiting. I thought we were all anxious.
I might have a thing for amazing people. Their presence blows your mind.
And it’s addicting. :)
Swear every time I look at the SL Norvern Monkeys, I think: Wow, that is HOT. And makes me wanna make Shizu hot too.
What strange love.
Never-ending cycles are vicious. Why, if you love each other so much (and trust, and understand).. would you threaten the relationship with so much unnecessary hurt? Such strange love. Strong, but frail.
You won’t change for each other, you accept it as each of your own personalities.. Why would you call that Love? Because you are so much more important than your significant other,...
“What is REAL?” asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near...”
– The Velveteen Rabbit
Dreamache
everybodycares:
Is this a word? Because, if it’s not, I submit that it should be. It would be used to describe that particular sense of longing one feels in the morning following a dream that has taken you some place, with someone, that you’d like to stay for a while longer; it’s that feeling in your chest when you realize it was all just a dream and you never really shared that experience...
Make for yourself a world you can believe in.
hellovagina:
Make for yourself a world you can believe in. It sounds simple, I know. But it’s not. Listen, there are a million worlds you could make for yourself. Everyone you know has a completely different one - the woman in 5G, that cab driver over there, you. Sure, there are overlaps, but only in the details. Some people make their worlds around what they think reality is like. They convince...
psychodelic:
Oh no, don’t know what i was think of...
psychodelic:
Little Joy - Unattainable I just...